In 3 weeks, I'm singing with mi Amorcita. In Vegas. For one of my buddy's wedding. It should be something to look forward to. Instead I want us to have more gigs here. In Spain. Far away from the excitement.
Excited. Nervous. Dread. Confused. Love. Those are the feelings I'm already feeling. Stupid. I also feel very stupid. And ashamed. But I have to get through this. It's for Jav. And his bride. Some days I really wish I wasn't so stupid. All these things are coming back to haunt the shit out of me. Plain. Simple. Life.
This upcoming wedding, it just reminds me of how badly I screwed up. How much I want to marry mi Amorcita. Why am I so stupid? Ask my parents. Maybe I did something stupid as a kid. Maybe I've always been like this. It just took losing the most amazing mujer to realize this.
